Change of Plans

Truly, God works in mysterious ways and His ways are not ours, though they work for our own good. Things may not work out according to how we've planned them, but God always sees to it that when He changes some things, the end result is always way better.

We are suppose to start driving to our new place this Friday, but that is not going to happen now. On Monday, when we went to my OB appointment, the doctor found out that I already have started dilating (1cm at 36 weeks). On when it started, I don't know. She told us, tough that it's still would be safe for me to travel, but having a background in medical field, I kind of questioned that inside my head. I know she didn't mean anything bad by still saying that I should be good because some pregnant women can actually still last for weeks without them progressing into labor even if they have started dilating before reaching their full term. But, I knew I needed to talk to another doctor just to be very sure about that. So, I called my Aunt, who was my OB-GYN in the Philippines, and told her about my condition. Guess what? I was right!

She strictly advised me not to risk anything at this time, most especially that I am not even at least on my 37th week of pregnancy. She told me that anything can happen really fast now that I have already dilated and she worries that I might give birth on the way and the baby would still be premature. Not only that. Because my body hasn't really recuperated that well since my first pregnancy, something wrong could also happen to me. That's why we had to reschedule everything again because I need adequate rest and we're waiting for the baby to reach 37 weeks before we can even make any decisions regarding the move. Right now, I am only at 36 weeks and 1 day - 6 more days to go.

I try my best not to stress myself out anymore since I think, stress was the main reason that triggered my early dilation. But sometimes, I really can't help it. We have to think of my husband's job as well because if he doesn't report on time, that could get him in trouble and he needs to be there no later than the 24th of this month. But what can we do when it's not up to us now to decide on when the baby wants to come out? Putting my life and the baby's at risk right now is so not an option.

I can only pray for things to still work out fine for our family. If this is God's plan for us right now, then so be it! HE knows better. I don't care if they come here next week and take our stuff away leaving us with nothing but just few things to use for the rest of our stay here, as long as I can make sure nothing wrong is going to happen, that would be absolutely fine with me. If our baby decides to be born here in California, that is fine as long as he won't be premature. That is our main concern right now. It's better that he comes out while we're still here than us being on the road and I start going into labor. Now, that would definitely not be good.

My husband actually asked me to set for another appointment on Tuesday just to find out if I have dilated more or not and if I still can travel or be advised to wait till the baby's born. We actually both are stressing out, most especially him, but we just got to do what we need to do. All we really can do are pray and wait... We believe that God won't put us into this test if He won't get us through this. I have faith in Him and I know that He will make a way where there seems to be no way. We may not see it, but we know in our hearts that He is doing only what is best for us.

I am actually glad we set that appointment two weeks ago when we did. Because if not for that, we wouldn't have found out about my condition, and we could have still pushed through the trip and who knows what could have happened to us. God really watches us all the time! And I am grateful that even in the middle of all this, we still feel His presence and that gives us the assurance that everything will be fine.

My thing is, God let this happen so we can still have the time to really get ready for the baby's arrival and for the big move. Everything does happen for a reason. We may not see that reason completely right now, but I know, here soon, we'll be thanking Him for delaying our plans just so He could work on His plans for us - plans that we know have way better results than what we've planned for ourselves.