Now that I already have three kids to take care of, the more it seems to me that one whole day is no longer enough for me to get everything done on my To-Do list. Things are way different now than how they were when we only had one kid. It's like, right now, I have to move around and get things done 3x faster than how I would usually do them if I even want at least 30 minutes to myself. I am on my feet almost the entire time the kids aren't in bed for the night. If the kids are asleep, I work on small chores just so I could knock them down one at a time and not worry about them just piling up resulting to more work later on. Right now, with a newborn who needs to get fed almost every 3-4 hours, I hardly get time to nap. At nighttime, I also wake up in between sleep to feed Kairi. So, not only am I physically drained, I am, above all, sleep-deprived! [hehe]
I am in the process of relearning time management right now. Having my mother here for more than a month has gotten me so used to having help around the house and especially with the kids. That's why now that she already left, I feel like a first-time Mom again trying to figure out how I can fit the kids and everything that needs to get done into my schedule without having to sacrifice one thing for another.
When it was just Skyler, I had all the time to stay in bed in the morning until he was up and ready to get fed. When we had our second child, Kaden, it was still all right, I should say. I still had the chance to sleep longer especially that I was pregnant with the third baby at the time. I'd only get out of bed when they were both up because I feed them together to save some time for myself. But with the new baby right now, I need to be up super early so I could get all three of them fed, changed, and put to sleep. Before, at around 8-9AM, I usually was still in bed. But now, as early as 5AM, I am already up feeding our little Princess and will go back to bed to basically wait on the boys to wake up and then feed them. As much as I want to go back to sleep, I just can't. Because once I fall asleep, I know I won't wake up till about noontime and the boys won't be able to eat their breakfast on time.
Right now, it basically is the same routine around the house for me and the little ones: get the kids' food ready and then feed them, change them, put them to nap, feed the baby and then the two boys and then clean them up and get them ready for bed. My chores don't look much, but trust me, dealing with three kids is quite time-consuming. Before you know it, the day is almost over and you'll just then realize, you really haven't done much because most of your time were spent taking care of the little ones. I even hardly get to write on my blog like I wanted to. Sixteen hours (minus the 8-hour time spent sleeping) seem long enough, but I don't know why at the end of the day, I always feel like I haven't accomplished that much?! It makes me sad that I don't know how to manage my time wisely right now. All I want is to make sure the kids are taken care of, I get to do household chores, and of course, be able to sit and enjoy some time for myself. I mean, I am not demanding too much time, just enough for me to sit here and write and update my blog. I'd rather do that than just sit and watch TV the whole free time. I really need to learn time management again if I want to be able to divide my time equally like I used to.
I really don't think 24 hours will be enough for me with what I have on my list for the day. I can only hope that things will start to mellow out as they grow older. I think it just seems to me like it is now because of the kids still being dependent on us for everything. I'm sure, as the days go by, I'd get the hang of it ;) Like what I just said, I think I just need to relearn time management so I can be able to fit everything into my schedule and still get some time to myself to relax. I know it won't be easy and it will definitely require patience, but I know here soon, I'll get there.
