I Need Motivation, Puhlease!

Okay... I have a confession to make.  I CAN'T SEEM TO FIND THE MOTIVATION TO WRITE AGAIN!!  I have been staring at the screen for a good amount of time now, and still nothing.  I am starting to not like this feeling.  When I am not doing anything, all I could think of is, WRITE.  But, once I get in front of the computer, it's like everything I've had in my head just a few minutes earlier, miraculously vanishes into thin air.  Is this a side effect of not being on here for years?  I don't understand.  I have so much in my head that I would love to put into words, but why does it seem so hard lately to even come up with something, somewhat decent to write about, just to begin with?  And the songs I'm currently listening to, aren't helping either.  I went and picked a feel-good playlist on YouTube to listen to, hoping it would inspire me to write something, but it is NOT working.  All it's actually doing right now is, make my mind wander off farther.  Not cool at all....

It's past midnight again,and I need to wake up in 4 hours.  I honestly had no intention staying up late tonight because it's not weekend yet, but I was motivated earlier to write.  Or, maybe I just thought I was.  I really did waste my time tonight.  I should've just e-mailed the lady about the information I asked from her a few days ago.  That would have made more sense right now.  Not to mention that it is a whole lot more important than this.  But, since I'm already here, might as well run my brain dry so I can be tired for bed once I get done ranting.  

Well, I guess I just haven't found the motivation again like I used to have.  Maybe I should be a little nicer to myself and give it some time.

I don't know...

I will just try again tomorrow.  I'm going to lay down now.  Maybe then, just maybe, after I get done with everything on my To Do List, I'll come up with something better to write about.  Because right now, my brain is completely empty.

So, goodnight, folks!