I should be in bed, but I cannot stop myself from crying, and I don't want to wake my husband up because he still needs to be up early for work. He has done nothing today but comfort me. When I found out the news from my Mama over the phone, I immediately called my husband at work and told him about Nana, and he rushed home to be with me. I have been crying for hours now. I try not to. I try to get myself busy by doing stuff I don't even need to do just so I don't have to think about it too much, but with every attempt I made, I failed. She was the only one we've got left, and now, she's gone, too. (Grandpa already went home 3 years ago.) And before Christmas? Do you have any idea how much I am hurting right now? How much I wish I have the power to fly and be there beside her right now? I don't care if she can't see nor hear me anymore. I just want to, for the last time, hold her, talk to her, and tell her how much I love her. She was my best friend. The only one who knows me inside out. The one who always knew the joy and pain in my heart even before I could tell her. So, do you have any idea now how much I am dying inside because I know she will never be there anymore when I need her?
I haven't even gotten over my Grandpa's death completely, and now, I have to let all of this sink in - and I can't! That's life? Right. Who am I to question God for His timing, His plans, and everything? But, I cannot help but ask Him, why too soon? Why couldn't You at least let her live a little longer for me to at least see her one more time? To have given her the chance to see my kids even for the first and last time? Was asking for her to be with us longer, too much to ask?
In all honesty, right now, I couldn't even look at our Christmas tree. Two weeks before Christmas. Two weeks!? Did God need her to be back with Him so badly that He had to take her now? Did God forget that we needed her more than He probably does?
I want to go to sleep right now, not because I am tired or my body needs it. I want to sleep hoping that when I wake up, everything was but a dream...
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I am so sorry for your loss sis, I know how hard it is to lose someone that you love. My brother and father died in such a short period of time so I know how you really feeling right now. Just pray that God will give you strength. Mwah!
My condolences to you and your family.
Hugs!
I am so sorry to hear this KC, I'd been reading your thoughts about your Lola even during multiply. And I surely know how much you love her. Just release your pain and pray that GOD will give you enough strength but maybe just maybe GOD just stopped her from suffering more pain so that's why He took her so she could be no longer in pain. And I am sure too that your Lola is looking down to you and your kids now. You have two angels now your LOLO and LOLA are there with you hearing and listening to your thoughts and am sure they would help you ease up from any pain. Condolence KC.
condolence sis and to your family. I can so relate with how you are feeling right now, my father died a few weeks before his birthday and that's just a few days before Christmas, our world during those time was so dark and empty..I also cried whenever I hear Christmas songs that used to lift our spirits because it's Christmas. Let it out sis, it will lighten up the hurt feeling inside you.
I am sorry to hear about this. I offer my prayers to her and most especially, I offer my prayers to you for strength and comfort at this time of bereavement.
:f :f :f I am so sorry to hear the loss of your grandmom.. :( I feel you... but for sure, your grandmom now is with Him and nothing to worry more.. may she rest in peace..
I am with you and your family in prayer at this crucial time in your life. Losing someone we love in this life allows us to reflect and to ponder on the reality of death. When my father died it was as if my world ended too...it took me many months to recover and finally smile again...the thought that he is now somewhere up in the clouds and that his memories will always be with me kept me strong...God bless...I do not know exactly how to comfort you but know that you are not alone...:)
I am sorry to hear about your grandmother. My prayers and thoughts for your and your family.
our deepest condolences sis. i also lost somebody dear to me, my brother so I know how you feel. trust that you and your family will get through this. your Nana is in a happy place right now and she is forever alive in your heart as long as you love and remember her *hugs*
I cannot thank you all enough for your kind and warm messages.. My family and I are going through a tough time, especially me and my sister because we're far and we cannot make it home. We grew up in our Grandparents' care, so losing both of them now is really hard on us!
Thank you from the bottom of my heart! I appreciate your thoughtfulness. May God bless each and everyone of you, and your family as well! :a
I am truly sorry to hear your grandma's passing:( I felt the pain just reading your post. It is always hard to let go of people we love so much especially when you are even miles away you can't even be there to see them for the last time. But God's surely has a greater reason beyond our capacity to understand why things happens. I pray for you and your family to be able to go through the pain of your grandma's death. She's in peace with our Creator. My condolences to you dear and the rest of your family.
I am so sorry for your loss Sis :-( I am sure your Nana is in heaven happy knowing that she is with GOD and she is free of pain :-) I hope that you find peace in your mind someday and your life will move on when the right time comes :-) Life is so precious :-)
So sorry to hear about the demise of your best friend lola. though, hindi nangyari sa buhay ko ang ganyan situation, but I know what pain is piercing your heart at this very moment. How can I console you... I guess, I'll ask you to turn a bible's leaf and you will find comfort in his words.
Losing someone we love is always painful. That is probably part of loving someone. Be comforted with the thought that you were able to love each other while she was here on earth.
I'm crying while reading your post sis imagining how hard and painful it must be for you to have lost someone dear. I just hope words are enough to comfort you right now.
Praying for the gift of acceptance for you and for the rest of your family members. Please accept my sincerest condolences.
First of all, my condolences KC.
I was in the same situation two years in a row. 2010 my Grandmother died followed by my Grandfather on 2011. When Grandmother died, I was in the Philippines and that was 1 day before I head back to Ireland. She even told me that she don't want to go yet. But it was her time. After one year and 5 months, Grandfather died.
I'm thankful that we husbands that will comfort us especially on days like that.
KC, may God's strength be with you and your family on this sad moment. But remember to cheer-up our dead grandparents our with our Lord in heaven, free from pains and troubles.
Condolence sis... just let it go, the process of grieving and her too...
i am sorry for your loss sis. its hard to lose someone we dearly love. but we should look at the bright side and think that she is in heaven now with our creator, happy and worry free. i dont think ur grandma would like it seeing you in this state. and i dont think its good either to question God, i am pretty sure he has His reason why he took your Grandma. i hope u feel much better now.
Again, my heartfelt condolences to you and your bereaved family, KC. No words of comfort can ever ease the pain of losing a person you dearly love. I know it coz I have been there too. I pray that God will give you the strength and courage to go about life without Nana. Her memories will forever live in your heart. Pray for acceptance too. Only time can heal the pain. Just cry and let it all out for now. You will be in my prayers.
Love and hugs your way!
I am so sorry to hear about this loss :( I will pray for you. I know that you can gather all the courage left in you and face your tomorrows with strength. Wherever he is right now, I'm sure he is watching you.
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