From My Husband...

He wrote this for me almost 5 years ago, while he was in deployment... 

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For my darling wife,

I wanted to write you something on my laptop so that I had more time to write to you. I have been counting down the days mahal and even as slow as some of them have been going, the thought of knowing that they are counting down makes me feel so good inside. I know things have definitely been tough on us during these times. It was your first deployment as a wife and mine with the team. I have definitely seen some great and also some tragic things my wife. Your letters and words of encouragement though have helped me tough these days out and always bring a smile to my face. Knowing that you love me like you do mahal is the greatest thing in the world. I can’t thank you enough for the love you give me and the strength you bring out of me. Without you Kirsti there would be no me. I can’t ever imagine living a life where you are not in it. To ever go back to that life I would much rather not exist in this world. You make me so happy mahal and it is that happiness and love that coarse through my veins letting me know that I am alive. I have never in my life felt so alive and so in love. I really thought I knew what love was before but I had no idea. I replay so many thoughts in my mind sweetpea that I feel like I am running a movie marathon about us in my head!! To think sometimes that you doubt yourself as a wife and a woman are hard to believe. Yet that is why we have our husbands and wives. In those times when we feel like we are nothing in this world, that we can’t be loved, our beloved ensures that we are everything to them. That they are the world that revolves around them providing light where there was once darkness. They love us unconditionally, through all our habits, our simplistic rituals, our love of tomato, peanut butter and mayonnaise sandwiches, they love us.

It is me mahal and you that share our love with one another. Loving each other more day by day, year by year. It will be our first anniversary together, the happiest day of my life. The day that I married my best friend, my soul mate, my wife K.A.C.. That day was the first of many victories and battles that we face in front of us mahal. I will always stand beside you my love. No matter the fight I will be there to be your shield and your spear if you should so need it. No matter the cost I would gladly give my life in defense of yours. As your husband I promised you that we will build a home of love and respect. Our children will be given all the love that they will ever need in this world. I love you so much sweetie that I just can’t wait to embrace you in my arms again and give you such a great big kiss. I miss you so much and everyday I grow closer to holding you. Being able to see you in Malaysia was the greatest thing that has happened on this, and actually any deployment in my career. I am so grateful that things worked out and I was able to see my wife. It is great how God can work things out mahal and He has been doing that since day one with you and I. I know that we didn’t meet by a weird occurrence mahal, we met because it was our fate that was laid before us by God. He gave us the first big step and now it is up to us to continue the walk, hand in hand my baby.

I love you with all my heart and I will always love you. I will always be there for you and don’t ever think that you never have someone to turn to. I LOVE YOU MY DARLING WIFE!

Your Husband Forever through Eternity,

J.D.C.