Suddenly ... I Miss Her!!

The days pass by, so as the chances of making things better between me and my sister. The gap between us seems to grow wider and wider and I'm afraid we'll come to the point where we actually have grown not to care about each other. Looks to me like her snappishness has gone in total control of her. I don't know her anymore. Or, did I really know her?

It's been a month now since that incident occurred, but no changes at all with regards to making things better. The only change I've noticed was the relationship being torn widely apart each passing day. I already had utilized all the resources I had to get to her to somehow move or touch her heart, but nothing seemed to work. I no longer know what to do right now. I'm scared of the truth that I'm starting to get used to pretending she doesn't exist to me - as I don't to her. This is a bad sign, I know and because of this, I feel like I am at the edge of a cliff and just few steps away from dropping-off. Suddenly, I felt so responsible for whatever is going on between us. That if I continue not to do anything, the more it will make things worse. But how? What am I suppose to do now? I wish I have a clue. I wish I know just exactly what to do. I miss her so much, I really do!! I could care less now of what had happened before. She is my sister and I just want to make things better between us regardless of what had been said and done. She's the only sister I have!!

She will be celebrating her 27th birthday on the 25th of this month and I'm hoping we'll be friends before then. If she can last in a situation like this, I can't. I thought I can, but like always, I can never do such thing - not to someone I love. I'm praying that God will show me the right way or the right thing for me to do to win her back. I just want our relationship back to how it was before this fiddling conflict happened.