Everything looked perfect, but one ...

Looking out the window, I stared at the beautiful moonlight pensively. My mind, in a sudden heartbeat, ran away from me. It took off to somewhere I had no strength to find out. Hesitantly, I let the tiny glimpse of moonlight in to my room. It would then serve as the only source of light to the dimness of my surroundings. It has been peering outside my window but the curtains shielded it from getting in. I let them loose. I left the room dark. I chose it to be that way - I wanted it like that at least for tonight or the next perhaps, and the next after that. I can never tell. I was trying [hoping] to shield myself from something I wasn't prepared to see - or something I'd rather not see at all.

But I stood there. Still. Quiet. Staring at the vastness of the horizon. Thinking of something to counter the heavy feeling I had at that very moment. Ah, it was no longer of any use. I already have given in to that urge that not so long ago was only a flyspeck thought that I could have gotten rid of if only I wasn't too busy lurking behind a sad mentation. I drifted away for a moment. And then, I was back. Muffling a chuckle, I let out a sigh just enough to ready myself to seize the moment I was hoping I'd share with someone - my husband.

Melancholically, I stared at the bright moonlight again. This time, it was way past my eyelevel. I had to look up a little higher to meet with its I-shine-beautifully-don't-I look. I could have sworn I would have been out there if only ... if only he was here with me.

The moment felt so right. The coolness of the breeze enticingly swept past my skin, letting me know just how good it would feel if only ... if only I could have shared it with him.

Gasping for air, I closed my eyes to let out the heaviness that was dragging me drastically down, deeper to total loss of sanity. Inconspicuously, I was back in my own world.

Everything looked perfect tonight, but one ... he wasn't anywhere around me. I was savouring the perfectness of the moment - alone.

Then, the moon started to tardily vanish before my eyes into the calm, pitch black sky. It was as if it felt the emptiness my heart was trying its hardest to hold back. I smiled vaguely at the thought of it - I couldn't gloat. It just felt good within to ignore.