On Friday the Twelfth

Yesterday, I got to spend time with my friends, Pam and Kristine. The three of us met up at Robinsons Place. I was really looking forward to going out because I haven't been outside of the house for days and I was so bored to death doing nothing but read, write, and listen to music. It has been raining due to typhoon, Marce that's why I wasn't able to go out. I hate going out when it's raining so hard because when it rains here, it floods!! It was a bit cloudy yesterday, but it didn't rain that much. It sprinkled when I left, but that was it, so I took the chance to go out.

I had fun, though half of the time I was with them, I did nothing but vent out!! Yes, literally I was mad but not at them. I just needed to vent out because there's nobody I can really talk to here at home and this bedlam is getting at its worst on me. I'm just glad I have friends like them who are always there even I'm at my worst situation. Thank you very, very much, Pam and Kristine. I love you lots!! I feel much better now!!

After we had dinner and they left to go home (both of them live in Cavite), I decided to do some shopping. I bought "emergency" food I could store in my room. I sometimes end up feeling hungry in the middle of the night. It's good to know I have something I could easily grab just in case. Now, I'm good with what I got - probably would last me a week of food supply. Other than those, I didn't buy anything else. I remember D telling me one time over the phone - he said, he is not worried about me spending money because he knows I only get crazy over food and not on other stuff. Hehehe Well, I get crazy over books, too but I don't buy those that are expensive. I go to book sale and buy some which only cost P40 to P80 each. I was actually planning on buying one last night, but I forgot. After I bought some groceries, I started having slight chest pain. I knew right away that I was headed to having DOB (difficulty of breathing), so I hurriedly went home. I just had to be home as fast as I could or else [I know] I might not make it if I stayed longer. The ride home took almost an hour because of heavy traffic. I started feeling dizzy and my lower extremities felt numb. Worry crept all over me. I was still minutes away from home and I didn't want to just pass out in front of people I don't know. I had to carry 3 bags of groceries, not to mention that 2 of those bags were kind of heavy and that added to my then excruciating chest pain. I just kept telling myself all the way, to hang in there and stay awake and conscious. God must have sent an angel to keep me safe all the way back home. Honestly, I didn't even know how I made it to the doorstep of my house. All I could clearly remember is, I almost fainted in my seat but I felt a slight tap on my shoulder and a voice telling me to stay awake because I was almost close to getting off the "jeepney". One guy [a passenger seated in front of me] even offered to hold on to one of my grocery bags, but of course, out of feeling shy, I thanked him for his kind gesture and told him it's all right - that I still could manage. Whoever he is, thank you!!

When I got home, I let out a sigh of relief and thanked God for bringing me home safe and sound. I just realized then that I should have taken a cab. I shouldn't have pretended that I was all right even if I knew better that at any moment last night, something could have happened to me. I've learned my lesson and I will keep that in mind from now on - safety must come first, not trying to still save money during emergency situation!!