Where I Always Want To Be

There is no place like home.

I strongly agree with that saying. I don't know how many times I've heard people said that phrase or how many times my eyes had ran across of it in magazines or novels I have read. Though it's so clichè, every time I hear or read it, I always feel the same way I did on that very moment I came to understand what it truly means.

Ever since I was young, I've dreamt of nothing else but to have a place I can call 'My Home' - where both my parents, my sister, and I live together. I never had that chance. I never had 'my own home'.

I was raised by my grandparents; me and my sister. Our parents had to work abroad to sustain our needs and be able to send us to school. Though growing up in our grandparents' care is something I will never take back nor trade for anything in this world, deep in my heart I'd still wish our parents could have been the ones who raised and took care of us. I knew it would have been a lot different. I could have had so many memories of them that I could pass on to my own children in the future. I could have had those moments of parents-child bonding and just being able to spend time with them. I never had all those chances. I grew up not having one of them around me to witness it.

Of course, I can never blame them. If it were not for their hard work and sacrifices, we wouldn't be here right now nor could we ever have gone this far. It's just that, every time I see families spending time together, or mothers and daughters talking to each other as if they're just of the same age and having fun, I can't help but feel jealous. I never got to do that and I wonder if I ever will.

"A home is where the heart is." A home is a place where each family member gets to share things with the rest of the family. It is where we first learn things and then later on, carry them with us as we venture further to learn more outside our home. It's where we're first taught on how to deal with others, respect others, care for others, and above all, it's the very first place where we are first taught about love.

When you get tired from all day's work, where would you want to go? Home, right? Home is the very first place that pops into our head, because at home, we feel more relaxed. It just simply feels great to be in your own comfort zone where nobody can ever disrupt you. You find peace at home and just by seeing your love ones happily greet you at the door once you walk in from a tiresome day at work or at school, their smiles as if have magic, take away your tiredness and make you feel better right then and there. And no matter where we may go, every time we think of home, we feel connected to those we have left behind. Home bridges the distance between us and our love ones who have gone to far away places. It keeps the love alive and the family intact. Nothing could ever beat the joy we feel and the love we get to share with each other inside our home.

I may haven't got the chance to experience what my heart has been longing for when I was younger, God has given me a new chance now to do it on my own. I have now all the chances I never got during my growing years - chances with my own family. Soon, we will become parents, too to our own children and because of what I've been through, I can valiantly say that I already know what I would like our own home to be - a love-filled dwelling place. I have been through a lot and though I've become who I am now because of those experiences, I will never let my own children go through the same life I had - with both parents not around while they're growing up - we know they so sweetly deserve such abundance of joy, love, and our time.

We are the ones who build our own family and from there, we create a house to dwell in. And it's up to us on how to make that house a wonderful place to live in - a place to call "Our Home."

From now on, I will never be anywhere else far from home. Time may give us chances to travel and go to far away places, but there's no other place on this earth where I'd rather be at, than my own home. I will always make sure I go back to where I started my journey from. After all, everything starts and ends at home.