Our World Today in My Eyes

The clock shows 19:57. Still a bit early for me to feel sleepy, but I already am. Kind of bizarre because I didn't do much today. I will just take it as a result of not being able to get enough sleep from last night. Aside from the fact that I went to bed at 0300, I woke up just about five hours and 10 minutes later. Not good for my health, but still glad for at least I got a five-hour sleep. That made me think of my husband and everybody out there right now. Is he still able to get as much rest as he needs? How can someone who's in a place like where he's at right now, still manage to sleep peacefully at night knowing that dangers could be lurking anywhere nearby and who knows when they're going to make an entrance into the open? That is if they even get to have some sleep. How can they still bring off a smile having the fear in their hearts that any moment now could be their last? Why can't two different people just live together peacefully so nobody, no innocent people need to suffer from things they never wanted to get involved with in the first place?

I just don't understand things, people in general. And I guess I'll never ever understand them for the rest of my life. Simple things are turned into the most complicated situations because nobody wants to give in; everyone wants to rule; no one wants to be behind someone and be led; everybody wants to lead.

I may not know a lot like older people do and those who had been through so many ups and downs in their lives, but I completely am not incognizant of what's happening around us now. I have seen and heard enough news on TV about the sad things that are going on in some places right now and how innocent people strive as hard as they can to survive a day after the other even with no foregone conclusion as to where they're actually headed. I need not to be with those people in person for me to feel the agony they're carrying with them every single day. Those people live in fear; in hunger for freedom and peace. Can anybody hear their cries? If so, where are those people who can? Can they see right through their eyes the heavy encumbrance they need to take just so they'd make it to the next day? If they can see their pain, why are there still so many of them left suffering when all they deserve is to have a life that's like yours and mine? Why can we - the people who aren't in their situation - live a day and enjoy moments without worries and fear of being shot at or worse, end up dead on the streets, and they can't? Don't they have the same rights that you and I possess? What about those innocent children's dreams of growing up and having life of their own; wanting to experience life longer in this world we're living? Are we just going to let those precious dreams go to waste without even giving them the chance to prove themselves to the world, that they, too can make a difference? What are we really doing to end all these conflicts; wars between men of the same race, same beliefs, same culture, same blood; men created by the same God? What has become of us? If all this won't end now, then when? What about the young children and the unborn ones? What will be left for them to someday stand there and be proud of those who had bestowed them of what they have, in the future? Don't you want your children to be proud of you when they're older? Don't you want to share happy stories, instead of having them asking you about the bad things that's slowly swarming all over the world like bees in a new hive?

I worry about my children's future. I worry about those young people in those affected area. I worry about the people who aren't certain if they'll ever get to see the next dawn or not; those people who live in fear. I feel sad and sorry for them and more often than not, my heart cries with them. Not all want to solve these "wars" in ways where people have or should I say, need to shed blood and sacrifice countless lives to attain peace. Who would want to have their love ones sent to places of precariousness? Unsure of almost everything that thrives in there. Uncertain if they'll make it out alive or not. Nobody, right? But because it has been implanted in our minds that for now this is the only way to achieve peace or freedom, we go for it even if we know, in the back of our heads, that there are other approaches as to how we could make it happen. But I guess that's what the saying "Eye for eye; tooth for a tooth" means. Correct me if I'm wrong. I'm not so familiar with that one. I just heard of it many times before. I still couldn't get it. Why is it a lot easier to take other people's lives, yet too hard to ask for forgiveness, acceptance, and letting go? We already lost millions of lives - of our soldiers down to the innocent ones, and even that of the so-called bad people. But, have you seen changes so far? If so, were they for the good side or the bad side? Because if you'll ask me, changes that took place were more on the latter side. That's why as much as I want to watch the news like I used to, it's the other way around now. I could no longer stand a whole minute of it when all I keep seeing and hearing are the same stories, changing only for the worse. I fear for the lives of our soldiers - and I feel sad for those who had given their lives for us so we could live in peace and have freedom to continue doing the things we love. But they will never be forgotten! We owe them the very thing that other people would willingly die for just to have even a minute-long taste of it - freedom. I pray their sacrifices will soon pay off so nobody has to lay his own life again for the same cause that the soldiers before them had constantly been fighting for. I don't want any of those to ever go to waste. We have lost so many men out there already, and nobody knows how many are we still going to lose. That's part of the uncertainty we all have to face each day.

I may have seen a lot, but I've only experienced so much. But those experiences were enough to open my eyes to the real world - a world where every minute of it has to be battled for you to continue living. This is a new world where everybody is afraid of everybody. We no longer know who to fully trust and who to avoid. People come out into the open wearing exactly the same looks, hiding behind the same mask of pretentiousness - we pretend everything is all right when we know they're not even close to being as such. It's hard to distinguish between who belongs here and who belongs there. And it's not even about where you belong - it's where you want to be and you embrace it with a heart that's full of hope and eagerness to help make things better. Everyone can make a difference - a difference that soon will lead us to a better world, the kind of world where each of us truly deserves to live in. War is not the answer and it never is going to be. War is not going to solve any conflict. The only thing it does is to make it more challenging to solve things. War is an omen that we all have to take heed for because if not, we're all bound to destroying our very own lives, not other people's lives - OURS. It's not actually the guns that kill people - people do!

I strongly support our troops, not the wars!!

It's not yet too late to change things. So, why don't we let it start - with us - right now?